We are officially in the New Year and I’ve been thinking a lot about my goals, hopes, and dreams for this current year. I’ve set some awesome goals that I fully intend to crush. I’ve come up with a plan for most of those goals and how to implement them into my daily life. I’ve been working on balance. But, I was thinking about what my word for the year will be. I first heard about having a word for the year from Miriam over at Farm Girl Miriam. I thought it was a brilliant idea. She chose joy this year. I was also thinking about how in Eat, Pray, Love Elizabeth Gilbert chose her word. Of course, I think our word can change and does not necessarily have to stay the same. So, I really liked the idea of picking a word for the year.
This year I chose the word FEARLESS. Fear has been a big part of my life and journey. I’ve struggled with fear most of my life. I have a lot of regrets because of letting my fear and anxiety hold me back. But, when I face my fears even though it is scary in the moment I know I really can’t die from the fear. And when I push through it and crush a goal I always feel awesome after.
This year I don’t want to let my fear and anxiety hold me back from pursuing my goals and dreams. I want to choose love over fear. I want to push myself to be the best version of me and that girl is fearless, strong, confident, and is in pursuit of her goals and dreams. Fearless to me does not mean I will never have fear because I know that is impossible. Everyone has fear. But, to me fearless means that I will forge ahead even if the going gets tough. Even if I want to quit. Even if my anxiety gets’s the best of me.
My mom recently bought me this necklace from Luna Norte. It’s a quartz for power, energy, and clarity. I am all for crystals and love them. I’ve actually been wanting a crystal necklace for a really long time and this one came at the perfect time for me. This one is for increasing inspiration and creativity. This year I fully intend to reach my dreams one step at a time.
It’s not always going to be easy and I know fears will come up along the way. Choosing to live authentically and putting myself out there is not the easiest thing for me. I still at times worry about what other people will think of me. Growing up I was the uncool kid and was often teased and bullied. My mom and granda were hoarders so I could never invite people over and when I did it would ultimately lead to me being bullied at school on Monday. So, I mostly just kept to myself and was labeled the weird kid. Even teachers were unkind to me because I was so quiet and shy.
I also was in a special education class (for math mostly) So teachers labeled me as the girl who would always need help and would never succeed. However, I ran into one lady who I will never forget. She did my IQ test and actually said I was smart, tenacious, and would probably end up on the cover of Time magazine one day. Well, I don’t know about the whole time magazine thing but a girl can certainly dream. I am tenacious and once I set my mind to something I don’t give up easily. I’ve fallen down quite a bit these past few years but I’ve always gotten back up and tried again.
I think my biggest obstacle has been letting my own fears and doubts get in the way and be my stumbling block. It’s true when they say it’s all about the mindset. Obviously, hard work also plays a part but the mind is a huge factor in success. The past few years I’ve really been working on mindset. Doing affirmations, journaling, reading personal development books, and facing my fears and chasing my dreams one step at a time.
This year probably won’t be completely fearless but it doesn’t need to be. But, I know that this will be my year for making my dreams come true, one day and one step at a time.
